Needed a moment...

I had taken a break from searching for a little while to focus on other things going on in my life and had lost momentum due to the loss of a close friend (no death, just a loss)... UNTIL this morning when my Mom called me to tell me that she had just got off the phone with my Foster Mother, who found (through a friend of hers) a photo of my birth mother. I was shocked! My heart started racing as I stopped to process the news. Seeing a picture would answer so many questions for me about her and about myself. The link to the picture is in my email inbox waiting to be opened. I needed to blog first and let you all know about my anxious thoughts before opening that email and looking up that link. I've always wondered if i looked like her... I often (maybe even a few times a month depending how much I'm out in public) get the question "What are you?" referring to my nationality... or the statement "You look just like (someone they know or usually its Alicia Keys)... What are you mixed with?" ... I awkwardly reply "Well, I'm adopted so I don't know anything more then that I'm African American. They then almost always give me a sideways look and say "Really? You've got to be mixed with something else too". People are funny! These days it seems that we're all mixed with something :) Sometimes I tend to check the "Other" box when I fill out forms just to mix it up a little. Seeing this picture won't necessarily give me any answers to those peoples questions but it will let me know who's eyes I have, who's build or body structure, who's nose or hair.... Those are the things I'm curious about.